To be honest...

I have still been having the brain dump problems. I don't know why I can't have my brain work in chronological or linear order. It tends to go off into tangents.
One of the main reasons I started this blog is because of a bad experience with a doctor. She belittled me due to not losing any weight between appointments. I will do an in depth post about this appointment at a later date.
I honestly think that doctors or any one else should not belittle you for being who you are. I'm fat. I've gotten to the point that if someone doesn't like it that is on them. Yes, I am trying to be healthy. That doesn't mean my size has anything to do with it. If you are seeing this blog I am sure you have seen others that point out exactly this fact and back it up. I will probably also say why size (any size) does not equal being healthy or not being healthy. There is no magic way you can look at someone and know someones health. There are many people that think they can, but they are wrong.
I hope that you, my dear readers, will continue to read my posts. I know it isn't easy to be different from what society deems normal but, my dear readers, I hope that you know that I am one person that thinks everyone is beautiful due to their differences from the 'norm'. Keep being you

A little bit of a set back... kind of...

I have been trying to write my next post, dear readers. I am having a problem however. Instead of the concise posts that have a point my brain seems to be dumping everything all at once. I would like to chronologically or partly chronologically tell you how I have come to the point in my life that I am at. How the body shaming, self loathing and suchlike came about. How the food 'issues' I have started. Instead I go to write about one thing and end up with walls of text that are disjointed and a big mess. Please bare with me while I try to get it together to write this out. I will get a 'real post' up in a few days. Thank you all for understanding.

Please bare with me....

As this is a new blog I am going to be playing with the title of it and the background layout. Hopefully it won't take me too long to finally flesh it out.
Thank you for understanding.

First post....

I don't do well with coming up with blog titles so I am using the painfully obvious "First post..."
I decided to start this blog as a way to talk about the weight struggles I have gone through most of my life. I had another journal but felt a bit censored with what I wrote there. I feel this will give me a bit more freedom to speak my mind.
Full disclosure here - I have been overweight most of my life. I remember the first time I was called chubby was in pre-school. It has been a daily 'struggle' since I tried to fit into societal norms. I have been on so many 'diets' that I can't even count them any more. I've come to that point in my life where I am trying to be happier in my own skin. This sometimes is derailed by comments or perceived comments about myself. I do not think weight is really an 'issue' or a 'problem' I feel that people thinking it is an 'issue' or a 'problem' are just that 'issues and problems'.
So, welcome to my blog. Thanks for taking the time to read it.